“The question is not what you look at, but what you see. ”
― Henry David Thoreau
Yesterday, for a long while after coming out of the movie theater, I experienced what I have come to call my “out of body” experiences. Everything appears too bright and just not normal as if I am not seeing something all at once, I can look down at my hand and know it is mine, but it will feel as though it is not connected to me, etc. The closest term for these symptoms that I have found in doing my research is Depersonalization. I don’t know if that is what I have, but it is almost like prolonged migraine aura without the migraine itself. Now, one might say, “That is completely natural for your senses to be off after coming out of a dark theater into the light”, and I would agree except that this happens at other times as well.
For those living with migraines, one must take on the role of detective on a daily basis, trying to locate clues and facts, gather and reject possible suspects. For instance, could my strange symptoms be related to my diet? Could they be an illness other than migraine? Could it be a neurological trigger like stress or anxiety? Could it be barometric pressure of a storm coming? Hormones? Poor eyesight? Sensitivity to light, sounds or smells? The list goes on and on.
Since I am still trying to work out the diet and there is no way for me to tell at this time if what I am experiencing is connected with barometric pressure or others, I am following the possible lead related to lighting. I am very near-sighted and wear glasses. My glasses have transition lenses because I am very sensitive to light and they serve as sunglasses, changing to adapt when I go between inside and outside. I have been toying with the idea that different kinds of lighting effect me since I have had a couple of migraine “attacks” in public places with florescent lighting, but I have also had a full-blown attack in a movie theater before and yesterday’s out of body feelings have me wondering about screen size and proximity as well. Do my eyes and my brain have a difficult time making sense of a large screen? Does it then affect all of my visual sensibilities for a prolonged amount of time afterward? I don’t know the answer, but it bears further scrutiny.
As usual, if anyone reading this can relate or can provide helpful information and/or insights, please feel free to comment.